Where do I even start?

Some days I feel like I have a plan, a clue.. I know the direction in heading.

Other days..

I dont even know who I am.

I need a new start.

Anustart.

Without fully realizing it my life has been revolving around my husband for so long I feel like I forgot to have my a life of my own. I’ve always dreaded being this person. I spent my life trying to avoid this. And now here I am.

It feels like I’m adrift in a sea..

I quit the food business. Sometimes I’m tempted to go back, but honestly I think I hate it now. Even just watching food videos annoys me. It triggers me.. stirring up a whirlwind of confusing and not so pleasant emotions.

I love photography and art so much I couldn’t bear to make a living from it. I think thats why I’ve been having creative block… feeling that every image I make has to be portfolio quality.
I need to make art for me… but I’m stuck.

I need anus tart.